Bizarre is an understatement for what is happening today. Both my Mom and Dad were picked up by ambulances and taken to UCD Med… That was strange but even stranger is that they are really, really sick and that for the first time I had to discuss advance directives with the cardiologist today. I was not very close with them for many years, but have been for a few lately and even then I am at a loss for feelings…there are moments when emotions abound and I feel a lot of sadness and guilt for not being there to share life, an then there are moments when the practical side of me takes over and thinks that it is simply the cycle of life: be born, live life, die; and don’t worry about the process. I feel sad because I think about my grandma and my experience with her dying and don’t want to go thru that again… At least not anytime soon. I also think about my son Diego and how I wish for him to enjoy his abuelos for many years to come. Diego especially loves my Dad, he is his whole world when they are together. So I know for sure my Dad is being admitted to the ICU and my Mom to cardiology; and I will have to split my time between them… Truly strange/bizarre.
Aug 292009
